October 12, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 1
Breakfast smoothie: 4 large bananas, 1 mango, 2 turmeric roots, and 2 leaves of kale.
Lunch: Transitioning to fully raw vegan would be so much easier if I actually had a sweet tooth. Oh well! Gotta keep fruiting myself!!! Devouring a whole baby watermelon!!!
Dinner: Bowl of spinach, 2 yellow squash spiralized, and pink sauce made with tomato, beet, green onion, cashews, cold pressed flaxseed oil, and a dash of apple cider vinegar. I’m about to mix everything together.
October 13, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 2
Of course I brought a ton of extra food to work. I’m not risking getting stuck in Corporate America hungry and craving almost 30 miles away from home. 5 bananas, 2 apples, 2 mangos, 2 large 7-cup bowls of watermelon, and 1 large 7-cup bowl of leftover spinach, yellow squash noodles, and tomato beet pink sauce with an extra small tin of the last of the pink sauce on the side.
I injected myself for the first time yesterday with the help of an auto injector to begin Multiple Sclerosis medication. I will do this 3 times a week. And I didn’t cry… too hard. Actually the shot itself was fine until about 30 seconds later and then WOWZA does it sting for several hours afterwards!!
I went fully raw vegan yesterday and I’m not looking back. I can already feel that my skin is softer and cooler. I still hate bananas, but they are so cheap…!! Lol!
Jasmine and lavender essential oils mixed together smell like a bathroom. Don’t try that!!!
I’m grateful for all the wonderful and supportive people out there who offer advice, guidance, and sometimes just a virtual hug. Thank you!!
Got back from the gym and haven’t had dinner yet. I have an idea about making a cucumber melon smoothie. Half a honeydew and a whole large cucumber in the Ninja. That’s it!
October 14, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 3
Slaughtered… 2 mangos and a small papaya.
Injected myself. Cried like a baby during the painful aftermath of stinging and throbbing. Wiped my tears. Now time to take out some anger on this spiralizer and make some raw vegan comfort noodles.
October 15, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 4
Caught myself in the mirror. “What is on my face??! Is that… glow?”
Green apple, red apple, mango, and leftover zoodles with homemade sauce of tomatoes, strawberries, green onions, potato, lemon basil, and I can’t remember what else! Fully raw vegan noms!!!
Coworker: You like eating a lot of bananas?
Me: No. I really hate them. But I eat them for nutritional value.
Coworker: Bananas are the only fruit I can stand. I stay away from other fruit because it contains too much sugar.
October 16, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 5
What what!!! Cravings are for warm salty soup. I am resisting like a champ. Discipline. Willpower. I got this.
I got hit on at the park yesterday by a young man who claims he’s old enough to buy alcohol now!! He wanted to know how old I was and why I wasn’t married. I said I’m 30 and I fired my ex husband, but I have a wonderful boyfriend now who is also old enough to buy alcohol. He still wanted my number. I said, nope! I’m faithful, but that’s sweet. Hey! I still got it!!
This morning in the elevator to the office, a woman pointed to my grocery bag full of veggies and fruit and said, “so did you go to the farmers market or something?” I said, “haha no that’s just my lunch for today.” Her face…
Tonight is my third MS injection. I’m thinking I will go to the gym before the injection this time. On Tuesday I thought I’d go the the gym after the injection to take my mind off things, but that didn’t work out. So, tonight! Gym, then hot bath, then injection. The order of operations is very important to figure out so that I stick to the schedule and don’t sacrifice anything! Heh…. stick. Oh I’m puny today.
And the first book to make it to my house after my massive health book order is…. The 80/10/10 Diet!!! Is this a sign? Hmmm.
October 17, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 6
Eat to Live.
Raw organic corn might be my new favorite salad topping.
Raw Vegan Day 6. Already? Yes, I can do this long term.
Eggplant does not spiralize well, but it’s lovely in the food processor. lol! Lesson learned!!
Last night, I ran the furthest I’ve run so far, and my speed was faster!! All the way around the gym building and the perimeter of the parking lot without stopping. I can almost run backwards too!
3rd MS injection last night in the other quad. Still hurt and I got lightheaded, but not nearly as painful like Tuesday. I’m thinking I went too deep on Tuesday and hit muscle. My quads are pretty tight and the skin is thinner. Lesson learned, adjusted the injection gun, and made notes for next time.
SO, total lifestyle changes in the last little over a month have been:
-Rejoined gym and personal trainer targeting 5-6 days a week minimum.
-Hospitalized for the first time ever and told I had a right hemisphere stroke – nope.
-Diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.
-Relearned to walk, run, drive, type, work, and take care of myself through a LOT of sweat and tears.
-Went raw vegan and will read and adopt the 80/10/10 lifestyle.
-Learned to inject myself even though I’m still very much needle phobic.
I’d say I earned my Big Girl Panties this month.
October 18, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 7
New running record! 2/5ths of a mile without stopping!! I’m getting my left side back one way or another!! No excuses! No limits!! No compromises!
It’s a conscious decision and requires some effort more than once an hour. Is it uncomfortable at times? Absolutely. Am I tempted to cheat? You bet!
I want some Thai Spicy Soup and Kung Pao Vegan Beef from my favorite vegan restaurant. I sat in there on Friday with my boyfriend watching him eat a big bowl of their delicious soup and then some fried rice with cooked veggies as I ate my raw veggie salad with no dressing. It wasn’t absolute torture because I chose not to focus on the inconvenience of my desire being unfulfilled. It was still a frequent and conscious choice to abstain from the cooked and processed vegan foods.
I literally walk through the grocery store now muttering under my breath, “I am raw vegan. I am raw vegan. No! Look away from the Tofurkey! I am raw vegan. Ah shit there’s that habanero jack Daiya cheese… and Sprouted Tofu… NO! Look away from that! Look at these delicious tomatoes and look how luscious the strawberries are and LOOK at this over here that I CAN have.”
I am rewiring my brain and training my body to accept living foods only and to trigger internal healing processes. That takes time and practice. Sometimes it is frustrating and annoying. That’s okay and to be expected. My eyes will eventually glaze over the temptation and it will get easier and easier… just like it was giving up meat at first, and then dairy, and then going full vegan.
I remind myself WHY I’m doing this. I’m not doing this for my culinary pleasure. I’m not doing this because I just want to be even more strange and annoying to society than I already am. I’m doing this with purpose and intent much larger than a temporary desire or old comfort or habit fulfilled.
It’s hard. Absolutely. Big lifestyle changes are never easy. And that’s okay. I embrace the challenge and expect to be tested repeatedly.
October 19, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 8
Maybe I’m detoxing. I just wanted to sleep all day.
MS injection #4 on the back of my Gimpy arm with assistance from my love. Best boyfriend ever held the gun very steady.
Breakfast – leftover curry noodle salad.
Lunch – failed attempt at all fruit ice cream so it became a smoothie – 7 or 8 bananas, 1 pint of strawberries, 1 cup of blackberries, 1 cup of raspberries, flaxseed oil, and cacao nibs.
Dinner – slow dehydrated spinach and sweet potato chips and a juice of carrots, apple, cucumber, spinach, and sweet potato.
I’m feeling the raw food work its magic. My body is changing.
My kitchen is completely transforming!! The crock pots, skillets, coffee makers, can openers, and crappy food processor all went away. The stove and oven are never used. The built-in microwave tells the time and is extra storage. The juicer, Ninja blender, and Spiralizer have their own spots on the countertops. My island has become a glorified fruit stand!!!
October 20, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 9
Already? This is going fast and getting easier. Woke up too early with too much energy. …Raw vegan problems.
Packed my food for Corporate America. 7 oranges, 2 bananas, 1 pear, half a giant jicama chopped into sticks for dipping, 1 large 7 cup bowl of fresh guacamole made from 2 large cucumbers, 5 small avocados, 1 large tomato, 3 banana peppers, 2 green onions, juice from a lemon and a lime, and lots of fresh garlic cloves (the spice comes from the garlic). The large cucumbers bulk up the guacamole without using too many avocados.
Probably a green juice or green smoothie for dinner.
October 21, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 10
Yep, I’m clearly detoxing. The unnecessary and unhealthy are finding their way out. And I don’t just mean in the physical sense. Phases of fatigue and high energy keep this rollercoaster moving forward. My tolerance for bullshit is gone.
You would think a long time vegan wouldn’t have much to detox. It just goes to show me how corrupt and polluted the vegan (specialty, junk, and processed) foods have become. Scary.
I remember when I first went vegetarian, and I had soy milk. That was it. And I felt fabulous. What happened along the way? We went too mainstream?
Like Oreos, just because it’s vegan doesn’t mean it’s good for you.
I haven’t posted about my weight in a while. I was 210 several months ago. Today I am 189, but I saw 188 and 190 over the weekend. I’m not fretting about it. I’m just watching it drop away slowly. Let it go! Let it go!
Go vegan for the animals. Go raw vegan for yourself.
October 22, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 11
“Put the child in a room with a lamb and a banana. Sit back and watch to see which he plays with and which he eats. We can be fairly sure of the outcome.”
-Dr. Douglas N. Graham in the 80/10/10 Diet
Simplicity. Gratitude. Logic. Making peace.
Last night my MS injection aftermath was the most painful yet. Upper right hip. Either it went too deep and hit muscle or maybe it hit a nerve. Two more injection sites until I complete my first rotation around the body. Noted the reaction and will try not to do that again. The more I do it, the easier it will get.
About to have a follow up with my Neuro doctor. I can’t wait to show him my left side strength that I’ve worked so hard to achieve.
Thinking alive. Feeling alive. Being alive. Appreciate this breath!!!
Well I just had my ass handed to me in the gym. Humbled!! Admittedly, it’s been an odd week and day.
In addition to being sleep deprived all week I did a fasting blood test this morning after the neuro doc, so already my caloric intake and metabolism were way off from the start.
I had a singular underripe banana for breakfast in the car at 10:30am while rushing from doing blood work to get across town 40 miles to work.
Lunch, I was feeling like experimenting. I had 4 tiny potatoes, 1 small eggplant, 2 tiny avocados, half a carton of raspberries, several jicama sticks, a quarter of a small pineapple, and a tiny amount of leftover okra and tomatoes. Not nearly enough calories.
Dinner I made Mystery Green Dragon Wing salad which I posted pictures of. I barely ate from it and still have about a 4 cup container left for tomorrow, although it was fabulous.
Lack of fuel, lack of sleep, and my body did NOT want to coordinate or lift anything in the gym today. Blah blah arg…
But that’s okay. Pushing through these days will make me stronger. Just because it’s hard doesn’t mean I get to give up. NOPE. I am moving forward even if I have setbacks from time to time.
October 23, 2014 – Raw Vegan Day 12
When you are 70, what are you going to be doing?
Overheard in the lunchroom spoken by a young 30 something woman just now:
“When I’m 70, I’m just going to sit there. I don’t understand these old people who do stuff!”
Wow… I feel bad for her and her mentality. When I’m 70, I want to be a yoga teacher or a marathoner or a chef. I’m not quitting life at any point.
I’ve conquered eating raw zucchini, yellow squash, red potato, eggplant, and okra. I’m going to learn to eat raw acorn squash, butternut squash, and pumpkin next.
I’ve conquered mono-meals of a whole bag of grapes, 8 oranges, a pineapple, a papaya, and a honeydew so far. I want to work up to a large watermelon.
I’ve played the game called “Spiralize Everything in the Kitchen” and won. I’m really liking the fettuccini-like flat noodle size.
I’ve been dropping weight fairly consistently. I weighed 187.0 this morning with 186.9 flickering (top was 210).
I’ve been told this is all I talk about ever – being vegan and now raw vegan. I wouldn’t say all, but it’s an accomplishment I’m REALLY proud of. You know what the hardest part is? Making the decision. It requires a substantial amount of brain un-washing. I worked hard to get to this point and I’m happy to share that it’s possible from someone who once believed it wasn’t.
I’ve been encouraged and supported from numerous people over the globe and have encouraged and supported numerous people over the globe in return. I’ve been given all sorts of recipes and advice and I’m so grateful for it all.
I’ve been told that I’ll probably die as a raw vegan. This actually might be true, but not in the way it was intended.
I’ve also ordered a reconditioned Vitamix, because I made 12 days raw vegan. Happy 12 days to me and many more.